Still Kicking


Considering the week I had and how little time I am going to have tomorrow, I figured I would get my weekly writing done tonight, else it wasn’t getting done this week.  I honestly did not have it in me to write anything new or too long tonight after today.  (Piece of advice:  Make sure you have a day or two to yourself after getting a Reiki attunement, especially for Master level.)

Now thankfully my writing blog has been around for a while, even if I haven’t been good about keeping up with it and I had a few starter pieces saved as drafts.  No I did not cheat, but I did use one of the pieces that were sitting in my draft folder as a base.  I wrote an extra 250+ words and called it a day.  Not some of my best work by any means, but I am proud of myself for having stuck to my schedule and got my minimum 250 words in before posting.

Now this is not to say I haven’t been busy writing, because I have, just not anything that will be published on my writing blog.  Now it has been a very long week and I still have to put laundry in the dryer so I have clean  clothes when I wake at the crack of dawn to go to the NYRF.  Have fun kiddies!

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Life Lessons: Overcoming Fear and Anxiety


I’ve been having trouble getting myself to sit down and write for the past few days.  Many of my old fears, anxieties, and self-judgments coming back to haunt me.  It vexed me, and by preventing me from writing as a release of those thoughts and feelings it acted almost like an old boiler.  The pressure was building, but there was a block in the main line and no release valve to let some of the steam out.  My fear and anxiety levels were shooting up exponentially, compounded by some major personal disappointments and issues coming to a head over the weekend with no end in sight.

Then I read something,  I’m not even sure whether is was a news article, a blog or just a post on Facebook, but I remember it said something about choosing self-experimentation.  With that simple idea, “choosing self-experimentation”, everything just clicked for me.  Choose to view my writing as an experiment today.  Don’t judge or fear it, just the collect the data.  Because that is the first step in any scientific experiment, isn’t it?  Observation, only after you have observed something can you create a hypothesis to test.

I realized I was no-where near the hypothesis stage yet, since I had only a couple of pages of data, on only one character.  How the heck can I tell if I like my story, never mind whether it is good from one character.  Not even what her story is, just a bit of her back story, created from less than an hour’s worth of prompt writing.  In order to experiment whether it is self-experimentation or experimenting with your writing (which in a way is the same thing in an altered form), on must start at step one.  Observe and collect data.

As long as you are honest, there is no right or wrong about the data, it just is.  There is no use judging it before you have it all because you only have a piece or two of the puzzle.  How can you put a puzzle together when you don’t even have the pieces?  Simple, you cannot.  You have to find the pieces first.

I realized I kept trying to put the puzzle together and guess what it was before I even had half the pieces.  I realized that my writing isn’t the only part of my life I do this in.  I bet you do this too, anytime you make a snap judgment before getting all the facts in.  Heck, we all have done it and probably do it more often than we realize.  How many times do you form your hypothesis before you collected the data to form a good one?  What areas of your life do you find yourself doing it most in?  Please share your experiences in the comments below, you never know who you might inspire by doing so.

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Writing is Exhausting, but Fulfilling


Started working on a new novel today, and no this one will not be going up on my website.  Quite frankly, I am not sure if I will ever even publish it.  I am writing this one just for me, as a way to explore my own emotional and psychological journey.  As I do so I begin to understand why I have always avoided putting my heart and soul into my writing and why that much change.

There is a cliche, and I am not even sure who started it, or said the original version, but it goes something like this:

There is nothing more simple than writing, you just open a vein and bleed on to the page.

I find it to be very true, but just because something is simple does not make it easy.  For years I have run away from my emotions as a defense and coping mechanism, but have more recently embraced writing as a tool in self discovery, self-awareness, personal growth and development, and mindfulness.  I find it to be a challenging path that becomes easier to follow with use.  Some of the writing I speak of is personal journaling, self-exploration of myself as a character in no story, but the life I lead, and some as part of my creative and essay writing on my log (this blog) and on Writing Happens (where my actual writing blog is located).

As I mentioned in an earlier post, I have embraced some of the habit forming techniques I have learned from James Clear’s website (click here to check it out).  One of which being keep track of your progress, which I have recently started using the app HabitBull to help me do.  (Sorry apple users, there is only an android app last I checked, but I believe there is a pc version online.)

Another idea I have embraced is “I am not good enough to be disappointed” (which you can read about here).  That was a big issue with me in the past, whether it was about work, school, writing, just about everything really.  Once I embraced that outlook, things got a lot easier.  Every time I get nervous or start overthinking and beating myself up about things, I just remember I’m not good enough to be disappointed yet, I still have far too much to learn.  That has honestly helped my anxiety not just with my writing, but with every thing so much.

The biggest point that I have been learning over the last few years especially is that it is okay to feel.  Being able to feel pain and discomfort (emotional, mental, and physical) is a part of life, and is how we let ourselves know that something is amiss, that there are lessons to learn.  As a writer, my pain, my fear, and my discomfort are all gateways into my becoming a better writer, as well as a more caring and compassionate person.

The way I see my job as a writer is not just to entertain or inform, but to teach and open people to learning more and questioning their personal status quo, and I cannot do that or ask others do so, when I am unwilling.   Thus I will endeavor to continue to explore and push my own personal boundaries as I hope my writing inspires others to do the same.

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Motivation: How Does One Achieve It?


I used to think that motivation was the way to go.  Keep searching for new ways to motivate myself to write.  Well, we can all see how that worked out.  In the end I was spending more time trying to find and motivate myself than I actually spent writing until I finally gave up.  Life got in the way and I just didn’t have the energy to both find motivation and write.  It was usually all wasted trying to find motivation, if I even had the time.  At least until it just stopped seeming like it was worth it any more.  A lot of it I realize was me biting off far more than I could chew, trying to write everyday, it was just too much at first.  I have learned better than with the help of some great articles over at JamesClear.com.

Armed with new insights and having remembered why I had started these blogs in the first place, I am back, hopefully for a good long time.  This time, I plan on posting at least one, but no more than 2 pieces a week of no less than 250 words and no more than 1,500 per piece.  I may post quotes, one liners, poems, and etc. still, but those will not be included in my weekly post count.  Wish me luck!  Hope to see your thoughts in the comments!

Alora

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I live!


So still alive and kicking, even if I haven’t been writing, I have been gathering ideas for stories and characters and what-not, so all was not wasted.  Going back to school soon and that should help greatly along with putting forth an effort to have life, not merely dream of one. With any luck I will soon have a new job that pays just as well if not better and does not leave me a brain-dead zombie at the end of the day.  Hmm, zombie stories there’s an idea. . . .

I have a few of those floating around the Brain-o-sphere (yes I did just invent that term) and perhaps I may even get a chance to plant the seeds of them on paper and watch them grow.  Hopefully they will make it to adulthood, but most likely just to their teens when I may get over enthusiastic again and most likely post without sufficient proof-reading or editing.  Though I think right now with all that is going on, just getting something written will be an accomplishment of the highest order.

Wish me luck, I venture forth to the unknown of my subconscious to find inspiration.  Also a wonderful book on writing I highly recommend is Ray Bradbury‘s Zen in the Art of Writing.  I so want to get my own copy and will be doing my best to do so soon, thus far I have had to borrow it from the library.  A library is my friend, even one so poorly planned and constructed as my town library.
Be well and happy writing all!

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Back on Track . . . ?


Well so much for being back.  It has been over a year since my last post on this blog, at least I wasn’t quite as bad when it came to Writing Happens.  I have actually posted on there at least once before yesterday this year, which I suppose is better than nothing, but not great by a long shot.

Hope to actually get back to writing regularly.  I had forgotten how much more alive and how much healthier I feel when write on a regular basis than when I do not.  I would also like to take this time to say, Thank you to those who liked my poetry post from yesterday, “Expense“.  It sort of made my “lazy day,” which was much-needed, both the likes and the lazy.

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Honey, I’m Home!


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I’m back, I know I’ve been gone for a very long time, alas life does tend to interfere with much.  So update, until yesterday I have not written anything since the last time I posted back in September.  I am exhausted at the moment and slightly brain-dead due to lack of sleep on top of a new job.  Either way, I am still going to do my best to get some actual writing done especially on my days off which are currently in flux.  Meaning they change my schedule weekly and I have to deal.

That being said I am thrilled to have a chance to write again and I plan on writing a great deal more and I cannot wait! Got inspired for a new story, which I started writing yesterday.  No, I did not post it yet, because life interrupted yesterday and I was barely able to get it started.  No I have not forgotten about my other series, nor have I forgotten about the essays I wish to write, nor any of the other pieces that are currently sitting in the drafts folder.  Much to do and much to write.  Now that I have a bit more stability in my life (my sister’s wedding and honeymoon are over and I am free of that insanity) I can actually get my mind to work some of the time.  Wish me luck and happy reading and writing to you all!

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